Asperger's Syndrome

my girlfriend caroline was the starter of this group in support of my awareness of A S.I would like to start a topic about how people have coped wiv comming to terms wiv A S in late adult life. im 40 yrs old and am gay and have no confusion over my sexuality im 100% gay and devoted to my partner, but also have a strong need for my independence but am constantly worried that she will b taken away from me which can make me obsessive and smothering. I have friends 1 called laura 2 i av known 4 20 yrs kim and kim and 1 i av known for 2 yrs called wendy and 1 friend who is my partners sort of daughter mandy and all r kind 2 me and r tottally aware of A S now. i do have a problem wiv small talk i like to talk about things im into like orbs and angels as i totally believe, i know everything about them but sometimes feel as tho strangers look at me as tho im weired or comments i make are innaproppiate or r just plain rude im told. can u understand this? i get in2 such a state b4 a social avent but feel rude if i dont go but wen im there i mess up everytime and become aggressive and frustrated wen they just dont get it. im in total conflict wiv every1, my loyalties and every1elese dont match and my punishment never fits the crime. it deverstates me 2 fall out wiv any1 and i will lock myself away if i upset my true friends and go so low in my emotions. My goal was to gain my partners sons friendship but was striving to high which meant i was constantly failing but all i want is his acceptance now and maybe he will b friend me one day, he is totally unaware of the affect he has on me, i hope he believes me wen he becomes aware.

I am so proud of you Claire so very proud .. whatever our future holds remember dont stop being YOU x Loving you right now